This was the day we were supposed to go to the Credit union to work out several financial affairs. However, at 9:30 a.m. I had a phone call from my doctor. He had received the report of the blood test I had yesterday.
"I'm sorry to say the results were not good" he said, "as a matter of fact they are disastrous. From the time of your last test a few weeks ago, your red and white blood cells have gone down very quickly and your organs are in trouble. I have to tell you, you have Leukemia".
I waited for him to say what I was supposed to do while digesting the fact that I was in such poor shape.
"I'll get you to go to a specialist in new Westminster but after talking with him he is of the opinion there is nothing we can do. You are in a very serious condition. I'll see you Monday morning and we'll see about blood transfusions and every week you will have to be monitored."
Brenda, bless her, came over and tried to work out what the next step will be. She ordered my meals to be delivered by tray to my room. She tried to make out what I wanted as regards some help in the home, she tried to get the health people to come and a host of other things. But the main thing was it was consoling to have her here because underlying all our busyness, we were trying to accept that I am now facing the end of my life in the near future.
I cancelled the Credit Union meeting, the reading I was to do tomorrow, (Laura will read instead) and the Denturist appointment.
I phoned Barbara M. to say the show will still be put on by Mady.
I phoned Mady to say - all instructions are listed what to do for the show and she said "don't worry - it will be done."
I phoned Barbara - my second power of attorney and told her the news and so on till I had to rest.
I called Kim who is a friend but used to clean for me and the darling lady said she'd fit me in to come once a week or any time I needed her and to phone her any time and she will come. After the specialist meeting on Wednesday, I'll let her know.
And dear ones who read my blog, I don't know if I will blog every day from now on. I've got lots of ends to be seen to and so much thinking to do, Willy's business isn't finished yet.
I have enough finances to pay for help or for taxies. (have to think of giving up the car.)
So I'm lucky that way.
I'm not in pain, just devoid of energy. Thank you for following me and the show will go on with or without me. Please write it in your calendar June 28th from 1 - I'm grateful, so grateful for the life I have had, especially for my friends and family.
I am full of love - signed Doris
I went outside to contemplate this. I head a beautiful bird singing, and looked up, there was a red cardinal on a huge Scott's pine, he then began to sing a song I've never heard them sing before, it was like he was there as a sign that though your body might be broke your spirit is as beautiful as it always has been and will always be.
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